Greeting From Nebraska! 9/7/2016

We ended up babysitting today! Hudson, he was very good! We watched Marsha and The Bear on Netflix. We had grilled cheese sandwiches and sliced apples. The apples are grown right across from our garage and are owned by our neighbor. He says to eat all the fruit we want! He has apples galore and pears upon pears!! I would love a full sized stand-up freezer. I would load up on them! I LOVE apple pie filling and I would make a ton! Hot apple pie filling is GREAT for topping ice cream, mixed in oatmeal or any hot cereal, added to pancakes and waffles and just to eat, with or without cream! You can make the same thing with pears. I do plan on making pear and apple butter, that will be canned though. I have a few cases of jars. Not the big ones though for pie filling. Enough for a pie takes at least quart sized jars, well unless you want to use more than one jar at a time.
Today is pretty well over though so there won’t be a lot getting done. I am trying to figure out a schedule. A way to balance work and home life. I’ve never been great at that. I seriously need help getting it together. There is just SO MUCH that needs to be done around here! It gets to the point I feel like there is no point because it keeps getting to be more and more. I kinda want to just hide in a hole. My blog is kinda my hole, I get to vent and just ignore everything away from the screen. No, it’s not a GREAT method, but right now that is my coping method. I need to focus on finding a better way tho.
This stuff with Bellamie has me on a downward spiral. I worry about her and my daughters. I worry that I’m not right there to fix things. I worry that the baby isn’t happy . All I seem to do is worry. How do you not, though? When it’s your kids and your grandkids, you’re going to worry. And when they don’t live close enough that you can help them if something happens you will worry even more. It sucks but I guess that is the way it goes 🙁 I probably am not getting enough sleep also. On top of the worry comes a lack of solid sleep. SO I turn to coffee, and I am up late worrying, so I don’t get enough sleep, so I wake up tired, add a lot of coffee and repeat. It’s a vicious circle for sure.