Got down NO protein drink(supposed to be 3 a day) today at all but did get a little bit of hamburger and 2 bites of mac and cheese down. Baby steps. I’m stressed the hell out over the coronavirus crap cause the stores where 2 of the kids live have cleared shelves. I’m trying to make sure everyone has the basics but everything is marked WAY UP if available at all. I just spent $50 on a box of diapers for Evelyn 0_0 There is no way to get them TP that I have found and I’m resorting to randomly seeing shit and sending. Even crap IDK if they usually just so I know that they have SOMETHING to eat. I was able to get SOME of the family TP and or wet wipes.
Being a perpetual “fixer” even of people who don’t wanna be fixed has been a life long issue I think.
I’m hoping this crap clears out fast but HONESTLY, I feel kinda like its gonna basically be “The Stand” by Stephen King come to life. Either way, it’s been a long day and I’m really fucking tired and didn’t get a lot done as far as work. Nothing is done in the house at all. I’m spinning circles here for sure. Here I am not absorbing nutrients why my hair is falling all out and worrying if I got enough snacks for people that don’t even usually eat snack foods. Like I said, spinning out big time!
I wonder if the world collapses if I will still owe the I.R.S. ….
I really don’t want anyone that works outside of their homes here at all. I know kinda shitty but I can’t fix anyone’s shit, even my own if I end up dead cause people carrying in diseases. I told a guy today he couldn’t pet my dog even. Snickers was unimpressed as he loves EVERYONE…that isn’t a squirrel or cat. Or leaf blowing across the yard, he is suspicious of those too. A lot of stuff I ordered that I had counted on showing up, they have canceled because they oversold it. Yeah for me. Let’s hope my monthly subscriptions show up!